Thursday, March 31st 2016
Dear Rim,
As you may or not remember, I ‘m writing you
this letter so that I remind you that you are not as terrible as you think you
are. I know how much of an ambitious person you are and that you are probably not
where you exactly want to be but take a moment to thank god you are not where
you used to be. I hope you stopped being as hard as you used to be on yourself
all the time. It is true that sometimes it is a good trait because it gives you
the motivation and determination to keep trying to reach your goal and become
the person you want to be but you must know that one bad test grade is not
going to ruin your entire future. A friendship ending is not your fault. The
boy that doesn’t like you back doesn’t know what he is missing. How can’t you realize
how an amazingly kind and genuine person you are?
I was wondering what you became; what do you currently study? Are you becoming a psychologist or a politician as you always wanted? I just hope you didn’t dare give up on your life and that you are deeply happy and content with yourself but if you are not I hope you find the strength within you to keep going until you finally find your happiness. Remember to be gentle with yourself because you are doing the best you can and to try to see things in perspective. Do you remember how badly our dog wanted a bite of the chocolate chip bagel every time our mother brought it home? We both knew she could not have it, simply because chocolate makes dogs really sick, but she did not understand that. When we didn’t give in, she eventually gave up and lied in the corner under the piano drooping and sad. The universe certainly has your best interest in mind; when you want something with your whole being and the universe withholds it from you, the universe probably thinks to itself “She thinks this is what she wants but she doesn’t understand how it would hurt” so stop blaming yourself and worrying about what you just can’t control.
I also
wanted to take advantage of this letter to wish you a very happy 20th
birthday. What did you plan to do? Are you hanging out with Hind, Rim, Hamza or
Hatim like you used to do earlier? If not, don’t be afraid to go see a movie by
yourself, sometimes it is nice to sit in the back of the theater and not share
your popcorn. Look at you; you are reading this, you have survived your entire
life up until this point; traumas, heartbreaks, devastations and here you are,
you are awesome, you are young. Stop swallowing your words. Stop caring about
what other people think. You are not your past. You are not a bad person for
the ways you tried to kill your sadness. Wear what you want. Listen to the
music that you like to listen to and play it as loud as you can and dance to
it. Go out for a drive at midnight and forget you have responsibilities the
next day. Stop waiting for Friday. Keep dreaming and if anyone ever tells you
your dreams are childish, remember that there is a millionaire walking around
who invented the pool noodle.
Take care of us,
El Berdaye Rim.
